Thanks for the "well wishes", I'll be allright soon enough I guess.
Teton Trav,
I started from zero last may-
zero gardening expertise
zero garden space
zero local mentors
zero idea where it would go
One of Jack's podcasts woke something up in me and it clicked- I decided at that point that I was going to transform my yard into something productive, something that would move me not only closer to self sufficiency but closer to sanity, something to reground me and help me live the rest of my life in a more satisfying way.
At first Mrs was OK with the basic garden if it looked OK, then tasted some fresh produce and saw a glimpse what was possible. By the time I reached the point of no return and cut the trees and pulled the hedges, she got it. I call it our homesteading project; she talks about how nice it will be when our "compound" is further along. We share the vision now and are completely on the same page.
I guess my point is that you, or me, or anybody here can really change things in our lives if we remain open to the possibilities. We can if we do what we know is right for us and not what others consider "normal'. I still feel like I'm barely into this project and know I have a ton of work remaining, but I still look forward to every chance I get to work on this. My friends thought I was a little whacked when I started but now they wish they had a similar plot on their own property.
Bottom line, DO IT. Try it, kill some plants learning, you'll get the hang of it. You can't eat what you "are going to grow".
And thank you Jack, you pushed the button that started it.